Sparrow

The other day, after 3 drying cycles and load full of clothes still wet, my husband found this upon further investigation:

A sparrow had made itself a home in our dryer vent opening and proceeded to lay some eggs as well. Of course, we had to clean it out and throw it all away. A couple days later, I looked out my kitchen window and saw the sparrow standing in the cold on the deck rail. I felt bad. Where was this poor sparrow going to live now that I'd decimated its home? It was then that I remembered:

His eye is on the sparrow.

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? (Matthew 6:25-27)

On my way home for lunch today I was reminded of this again when heard a song on the radio. It was a modernized version of the old hymn "His Eye Is On the Sparrow". They lyrics to this version are a little different than the old one, but they keep the same theme.

As time gets closer to when we can start trying again, I find myself internally conflicted. The thought of getting pregnant again terrifies me. I don't want to risk experiencing all the pain of pregnancy loss all over again, not to mention some kind of life-threatening issue. Yet, I so desperately want to experience the joy of a little baby.

I was encouraged by the lyrics in the song:

Why should I be troubled
When His tender word I hear
Know I rest on His goodness
In my doubt and in my fear

Whatever God's plan is, I know I can trust Him. He is good. I do not need to worry. As I step out in faith, He will lead me in the midst of my doubt and fear.

His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He's watching me.