Thursday, April 19, 2012

Negative = Positive

The last week I've been enjoying some time off from work on a 2-week vacation which has included time spent in the Shenandoah Valley, Washington D.C., and bumming around at home. I've decided I need to do this more often. Between having a PTO freeze the last few years at work and working to bank up my time so that I can use it for a maternity leave, I've pretty much maxed out my PTO savings potential. So, in order for me not to lose it, I need to use it. I plan on taking some more time off this summer!

The nice thing about being away is that it not only gave me a break from work, but also gave me the opportunity to think about something else besides feeling sorry for myself because of the ectopic pregnancy. I think the thought crossed my mind maybe two times the whole trip after seeing some moms with babies. Now, that's not to say I was not reminded about my situation every day, however. I had horrible cramps and heavier bleeding for the majority of the trip (how romantic!). I was not sure if the bleeding was truly a period or some sort of reactivation of my molar-infected cells eating away at the insides of my uterus and fallopian tubes (yes, my imagination is quite vivid). I had to throw this issue on Jesus multiple times so that I would not go crazy.

The second to last day of our trip I noticed a significant decrease in the bleeding. The last day it was the same thing. I was hopeful that perhaps this was nearing the end of over 55+ consecutive days of some form of vaginal bleeding. Once we got home, I had to go in for another blood draw. I was unsure what the results would be considering my disappointment from the last time and the analysis I had done in a previous post. You can imagine my surprise when my results came back at...

2.1! (a 99.4% drop!)

Anything <5.0 is considered negative, which to me is actually positive because this means:
  • I'm officially no longer "pregnant"
  • No more needle sticks
  • I only have one more cycle to wait before I can try again
I think I'm in shock. I don't really know how to feel right now except grateful! Thank you all who have kept Dave and I in your prayers!


  1. Yay! I'm so glad your lab results came back negative! That's wonderful news! :D

    Sending prayers and good thoughts your way to get you through this next cycle of waiting!

  2. That is so great to hear that finally lab results are negative and you no longer have to worry about that! Praying for you guys as you wait a little and hopefully soon you are pregnant again but this time without any complications!